Have I ever thought about how complicated my life is?
I have. A lot of time...
Have I ever thought that I had nothing but misery in my life?
Well,, every once a while, i have.
Have I ever felt that I am the most unfortunate person in this whole world?
Yes, I have..
Have I ever felt that I am doing a worthless life?
Mmmm... I have...
On Monday, April 7th 2013.
Something life changing happened.
On Monday, April 7th 2013.
I felt ashamed, because i ever let myself thought about those things.
Ashamed was not even right to describe my feelings.
Perhaps, "Disgusted" was a perfect word for my feelings at that time.
I felt disgusted of myself because of my habit of grumbling.
I, who run a pretty colorful healthy life, still grumbling about how bad my life was.
I still grumbling about anything that ain't right.
I still grumbling about everything. Every little things that not even matter.
While,
There they were...
Bunch of children, in very young age, were fighting their cancer.
They had to live with syringe stuck in their arms every days of their life.
They had to bear the pain every seconds of their life.
They had to accept that they could not enjoy their life as normal as the other kids did.
They had to do many things because they HAD to, not because they WANT to.
Were they afraid?
They probably were, but it didn't make them stop smiling
Were they disappointed?
Perhaps, but still. They still enjoy the life
There they were...
Among all those restriction, they still had the urge to smile genuinely.
If those children were that happy to face their life,
Then did i have a single reason to not to?
