am i having a long face???

Am i having a long face??

dunno…i don’t really know what i’m feeling at the moment. so silly, as always. Hahaha…..

Hey…ges wot??? i’m leaving in 1.5 months. Hua…hua…time goes so fast, i don’t even feel it. first time i got here, i felt like i couldn’t survive. 10 months seemed like bloody long time to go, but now at this sec, i feel like i haven’t been here for 10 months or so. I WANT MORE !!!! Hahahaha…another time probably. Hope so…

Anyway..i’m a bit freaking out now. exam is on…and i just think i’m not ready, even though i still have a bit of time to study. i have a day off for preparing everything. but the problem is I JUST CAN’T BE BOTHERED. i did my english exam today. i thought it was all right, but most of my friend said it was hard. Ohh… i don’t know. i don’t wanna be too confident. one down, two to go !!! Yay…..

Hmm…what else i should say. i don’t really know what on earth i’m writing this.Just to keep me occupied i think. How uncanny !!!! Hmm…. i was watching 60 minutes this sunday. and it was talking about Michel leslie and her adventure in bali. when i watched it, i felt like i was slapped on my face.

she said she wasn’t guilty. she ’s the victim of someone. She got trapped by one of indonesian minister’s son or someone’s son who has a power in indonesia. and she also revealed the "fact" that actually she could go home at the night she got arrested IF she wanted to pay $ 33000. according to her "indonesian police said that". and also she said that she has to admit to the police that she’s guilty so she could go home soon. they mixed her urine with the drugs, to prove the law that she’s guilty, then all of the complicated process become shorten. her indonesian lawyer asked her to do so, because he thought if she kept playing the "angel scenario", (she kept saying that she’s not guilty), she’ll stay in jail LONGER than the amount of time she has to spend in jail if she admit she’s guilty. "believe me..we used to do it, and it always works" said her indonesian lawyer.

she kept telling her story. and i just sit there, couldn’t do anything, just listened to her. i have no idea what really happened. at 1 point, i just wanna make her shut up, but obviously i can’t. and the fact that everything that she said could be true. i felt really miserable… i wanna stand up for my country, but there’s tiny part of my heart who kept telling me "it’s could be true you know. you can’t close your eyes, n deny that they won’t do such a thing. because u do believe that they r capable for doing that". Ooh…Indonesia… i don’t even know what to say anymore. so pathetic…

and also she revealed the truth that SHE ISN’T MUSLIM. she wore hijab just to protect her self. dunno why, i was so relieved. Uhh….i can’t think anymore. i’m so stuffed…catch u soon…