8 lies of a mother

EIGHT LIES OF A MOTHER

1.The story began when I was a child;
I was born as a son of a poor family.
Even for eating, we often got lack of food.
Whenever the time for eating, mother often gave me her portion of rice.
While she was removing her rice into my bowl,
she would say "Eat this rice, son. I'm not hungry".
That was Mother's First Lie


2.When I was getting to grow up,
the persevering mother gave her spare time for fishing in a river near our house,
she hoped that from the fishes she got,
she could gave me a little bit nutritious food for my growth.
After fishing, she would cook the fishes to be a fresh fish soup,
which raised my appetite. While I was eating the soup,
mother would sit beside me and eat the rest meat of fish,
which was still on the bone of the fish I ate.
My heart was touched when I saw it.
I then used my chopstick and gave the other fish to her.
But she immediately refused it and said "Eat this fish, son.
I don't really like fish."
That was Mother's Second Lie.

3.Then, when I was in Junior High School,
to fund my study,
mother went to an economic enterprise to bring some used-matches boxes that would be stuck in.
It gave her some money for covering our needs.
As the winter came,
I woke up from my sleep and looked at my mother who was still awoke,
supported by a little candlelight and within her perseverance she continued
the work of sticking some used-matches box.
I said, "Mother, go to sleep, it's late,
tomorrow morning you still have to go for work.
" Mother smiled and said "Go to sleep,
dear. I'm not tired."
That was Mother's Third Lie.

4.At the time of final term,
mother asked for a leave from her work in order to accompany me.
While the daytime was coming and the heat of the sun was starting to shine,
the strong and persevering mother
waited for me under the heat of the sun's shine for several hours.
As the bell rang, which indicated that the final exam had finished,
mother immediately welcomed me and poured me a glass of tea
that she had prepared before in a cold bottle.
The very thick tea was not as thick as my mother's love,
which was much thicker. Seeing my mother covering with perspiration,
I at once gave her my glass and asked her to drink too.
Mother said "Drink, son. I'm not thirsty!".
That was Mother's Fourth Lie.

5.After the death of my father because of illness,
my poor mother had to play her role as a single parent.
By held on her former job, she had to fund our needs alone.
Our family's life was more complicated. No days without sufferance.
Seeing our family's condition that was getting worse,
there was a nice uncle who lived near my house came to help us,
either in a big problem and a small problem.
Our other neighbors who lived next to us saw that our family's life was so unfortunate,
they often advised my mother to marry again. But mother,
who was stubborn, didn't care to their advice,
she said "I don't need love."
That was Mother's Fifth Lie.

6.After I had finished my study and then got a job,
it was the time for my old mother to retire.
But she didn't want to; she was sincere to go to the marketplace every morning,
just to sell some vegetable for fulfilling her needs.
I, who worked in the other city, often sent her some money to help her in fulfilling her needs,
but she was stubborn for not accepting the money.
She even sent the money back to me.
She said "I have enough money."
That was Mother's Sixth Lie.

7.After graduated from Bachelor Degree,
I then continued my study to Master Degree.
I took the degree, which was funded by a company through a scholarship program,
from a famous University in America .
I finally worked in the company. Within a quite high salary,
I intended to take my mother to enjoy her life in America .
But my lovely mother didn't want to bother her son,
she said to me "I'm not used to."
That was Mother's Seventh Lie.

8.After entering her old age,
mother got a flank cancer and had to be hospitalized.
I, who lived in miles away and across the ocean,
directly went home to visit my dearest mother.
She lied down in weakness on her bed after having an operation.
Mother, who looked so old, was staring at me in deep yearn.
She tried to spread her smile on her face;
even it looked so stiff because of the disease she held out.
It was clear enough to see how the disease broke my mother's body,
thus she looked so weak and thin.
I stared at my mother within tears flowing on my face.
My heart was hurt, so hurt, seeing my mother on that condition.
But mother, with her strength, said "Don't cry, my dear.
I'm not in pain."
That was Mother's Eight Lie.


After saying her eighth lie, She closed her eyes forever!


**this isn't my true story
i even got this from my friends.
but i'm sure, most of mother in this world would have done this kinda thing.
even my mum had done this couple of lies...
even though not in the exact situation, but she did
n since then, i knew that she love me, n will never stop...

to my greatest mum in Samarinda "Ma, nhira sayang mama"
n also for my amazing mum in Manypeaks "You're such an inspiring figure, Mum"

love u both,,,forever n ever

LET ME GO HOME!!!!

i miss my home,,,BADLY...

God,,,aku mulai mellow lagi nih...

tapi aku berasa kangeeeen banget sama rumah sekarang.

pengen berada di rumah (nenek)ku, dimana di rumah itu tentunya aku bisa nemuin kehangatan, kenyamanan dan perasaan yang membuat aku selalu pengen ada di sekitar mereka (orang-orang yang aku sayang)...



Malem ini mereka ada dinner seluruh keluarga (bahkan yang di balikpapan juga bela-belain ke samarinda). karena hari ini tuh kiki (sepupu) aku wisuda, n tentunya makan-makan donk...

Trus tadi aku nelpon adekku gitu, ngobrol-ngobrol kalau mereka lagi menuju ke suatu warung X (sengaja disamarkan agar tidak terkesan promosi).

"iya, kita lagi mau makan-makan nih. kan kak kiki wisuda. nih pada ribut nih disini, dari yang nenek-nenek ampe yang kecil-kecil pada ikut datang semua"

apalagi pas abis aku ngomong gitu, 2 tanteku pada ngerebut teleponnya n jadinya malah ngobrol lama....

ditambah lagi pas dengerin celotehan para adek-adek kecil (si alzan n alya -abel nggak kedengeran suaranya-) tambah berasa pengen pulang. coba pintu ajaibnya doraemon bener-bener ada. aku bakal langsung bangkit dan menuju ke pintu itu dengan senang hati..



Hua,,,hua,,,hua,,,hua,,,hua,,,

berasa pengen cepat pulang!!!

padahal liburan ntar aja aku nggak pulang,,baru pulang pas lebaran ntar...

Hhhh,,,masih lama yah???



pas denger suara mereka semua, berasa pengen nangis. cengeng sih emang,,,ditambah lagi sekarang aku lagi sakit, nggak enak badan, badan kagak jelas maunya apa. otomatis perasaan jadi ikut-ikutan mellow.



Mood jadi nge drop abisss,,,,bahkan kalau bisa diukur, below zero kali nih.

kontras banget yah,,mereka disana lagi ngumpul-ngumpul...seneng-seneng...rame-rame...

n aku disini, multi tasking gak jelas (nonton, OL n baca jurnal),,,, mood nggak jelas,,,sendirian,,,sakit,,,phew...



Kangen rumah,,,,

Kangen semua anggota keluarga aku,,,,

Kangen kamar aku,,,,

Kangen masakan rumah,,,

Kangen Samarinda,,,,

my cousins,,,tapi masih ketinggalan nih yang kecil-kecilnya...

my home,,,which i am yearning for

my family,,who i always love

YOU ARE BLOODY HYPOCRITE………JUST FUCK OFF!!!

sekarang aku bener-bener muak,,,
aku nggak mau hal yang kaya gini kejadian lagi…

mulut manis kamu tuh berbisa yah???
kamu tau kan apa yang bisa membuat aku marah banget kaya gini?
kamu tau banget hal apa yang memicu aku marah?
kamu tau banget apa akibatnya kalau aku udah marah…
u really push me to the limit honey….
i dont know if finally i can accept u as the way u were….

we’ve got through this thing before,,,
n suppose we’ve learned sooo many things…
n i just couldnt believe u finally do the kinda same thing…
u’re smiling when most of us feel devanstated,,,

i dont ask u to feel like most of us feel,,
i’m happy if u’re happy,,,
but please…u’re happy cuz you are CHEATED….
that’s the thing i can’t accept….

i dont ask many things….
i just want your respect for what i’m doing n surely as your friend….
but obviously, u dont see me on that both ways,,,cuz u really slap me right on my face when u did that thing…

MUNAFIK….
I HATE THIS WORD….
N I JUST CANT BELIEVE IT HAPPENS AGAIN,,,,

I’M TOO DISAPPOINTED ON YOU,,,,

W.I.S.U.D.A

W I S U D A

pheww,,,,wisuda cuy,,,

akhir-akhir ini seriiiiing banget kepikiran ma itu kata akhir-akhir ini…

makin menjadi-jadi malem ini,,,

disaat facebook sedang bertebaran foto-foto wisuda, dimana para wisudawan n wisudawati tersenyum bahagia dengan toga dan kebanyakan dari mereka pun memakai selendang tambahan…

pertengahan tahun ini aku udah naik jadi tingkat 3,,,well,,,feels like it was just yesterday when i finally stepped on my feet in UGM,,,attended the welcome ceremony, survived the PRK (hehehe), did my first class in Psychology,,,

far out,,,time runs pretty quick.,,,

in one side,,aku pengen cepet lulus…

karena in some point, aku mikir dengan lulus, aku akhirnya bisa makin buat orang tua aku bangga,,,dan nunjukin kalau apa yang papa n mama lakuin selama ini sama aku tuh gak sia-sia…

dengan begitu banyak kemalasan, kecerewetan, kenakalan, keinginan, dan semua keburukan aku lainnya (yang selalu kalian terima apa adanya), aku bisa kok nunjukin kalau aku tuh sebenernya pengen mempersembahkan sesuatu yang ngebuat kalian bangga…

disaat aku lulus ntar, aku pengen bilang “Pa…Ma…Semoga hari ini bisa jadi salah satu hadiah dari Nhira buat Papa n mama…Nhira baru bisa ngasih segini,,mungkin ini semua belum cukup. tapi paling nggak, Nhira pengen mempersembahkan ini buat papa dan mama”

Papa,,,,Mama,,,,selalu doain Nhira yah…

nhira tahu, tanpa diminta pun doa kalian selalu mengalir buat anakmu ini,,,

Insya Allah dengan segala restu dan ridho, Nhira akan berhasil meraih apa yang Papa mama n tentunya juga Nhira pengen….

Aku…

i even have no idea at all about what happens to me at the moment…

call this thing PMS,,,but really it feels like my heart is soo miserable…

nothing feels soo right,,,

it’s even like nothing can cheering me up these days…

it doesn’t mean i dont laugh at all,,,

i did laugh,,,even for several hours ago,,,i laughed with some of my senior high friends,,,shared our memories in high school even planned our vacation together…

but hey,,,,i really feek this emptiness….

what’s going on???

Nhira,,,,wake up!!!!!!

what are you so whingeing about???

u dont even know what really happen….

Guys,,,feels like my heart is going to blow up…

i wanna share what i’m feeling,,,but really u cant even understand what i am going to say…

so here i am now,,,sitting in front of my laptop,,,writing this blog n listening to mellow songs….

i dont wanna die, that’s for sure…

i still see what lies upon me,,,and i believe that i will be success

i can reach what i want,,,i can get what i always dream of…

i know i can get through it all,,,

but the point is…..HOW!!!!!!!!

I wanna cry now,,,

cry loudly,,,

Kupu-kupu cantik nan Malang

Di sebuah kota kecil yang tenang dan indah, ada sepasang pria dan wanita yang saling mencintai. Mereka selalu bersama memandang matahari terbit di puncak gunung, bersama di pesisir pantai menghantar matahari senja. Setiap orang yang bertemu dengan mereka tidak bisa tidak akan menghantar dengan pandangan kagum dan doa bahagia. Mereka saling mengasihi satu sama lain

Namun pada suatu hari, malang sang lelaki mengalami luka berat akibat sebuah kecelakaan. Ia berbaring dirumah sakit tidak sadarkan diri. Siang malam sang wanita menjaga di depan ranjang tiada henti memanggil-manggil kekasih yang tidak sadar sedikitpun. Akhirnya sang wanita berdoa kepada Tuhannya agar kekasihnya selamat. Air matanya sendiri hampir kering karena menangis sepanjang hari.

Seminggu telah berlalu, sang lelaki tetap pingsan tertidur seperti dulu, sedangkan si wanita telah berubah menjadi pucat pasi dan lesu tidak terkira, namun ia tetap dengan susah payah bertahan dan akhirnya pada suatu hari Tuhannya terharu oleh keadaan wanita yang setia dan teguh itu. Tuhannya bertanya kepadanya “Apakah kamu benar-benar bersedia menggunakan nyawamu sendiri untuk menukarnya?” . Si wanita tanpa ragu sedikitpun menjawab “Ya”. Tuhan berkata “Baiklah, Aku bisa segera membuat kekasihmu sembuh kembali, namun kamu harus berjanji menjelma menjadi kupu-kupu selama 3 tahun. Pertukaran sepert ini apakah kamu juga bersedia?”. Si wanita terharu setelah mendengarnya dan dengan jawaban yang pasti menjawab “saya bersedia!”.

Akhirnya lelaki itu telah siuman, Namun sayang ia tidak melihat kekasihnya berada didekatnya. Sang lelaki sepanjang hari tidak makan dan istirahat terus mencari. Ia begitu rindu kepadanya. Dalam sekejap telah tiba musim semi yang kedua, sang kupu-kupu dengan tidak sabarnya segera terbang kembali mencari kekasihnya yang lama di tinggalkannya.

Namun tiba-tiba sang kupu-kupu terkejut dengan apa yang dilihatnya di samping sang kekasihnya ternyata telah berdiri seorg wanita cantik. Ia benar-benar tidak percaya dengan pemandangan di depan matanya sendiri. Sang kupu-kupu sangat sedih. ia seringkali melihat kekasihnya membawa wanita itu ke gunung memandang matahari terbit, menghantar matahari senja di pesisir pantai. sang kupu-kupu yang hancur hatinya apalagi mengingat masa lalu.

Tiga tahun perjanjian Tuhannya dengan sang kupu-kupu sudah akan segera berakhir dan pada saat hari yang terakhir, kekasih si kupu-kupu melaksanakan pernikahan dengan wanita itu. Ia memandangi sang kekasih memakaikan cincin ke tangan wanita itu, kemudian memandangi mereka berciuman dengan mesranya lalu mengalirlah air mata sedih sang kupu-kupu.

Dengan pedih hati Tuhannya menarik napas “Apakah kamu menyesal?”. Sang kupu-kupu mengeringkan air matanya “Tidak”. Tuhannya lalu berkata di sertai seberkas kegembiraan “Besok kamu sudah dapat kembali menjadi dirimu sendiri”. Sang kupu-kupu menggeleng-gelengka n kepalanya “Biarkanlah aku menjadi kupu-kupu seumur hidup”.

Akhirnya,,,,

Akhirnya,,,setelah kurang lebih 6 tahunan Papa hidup berjauhan dengan istri tercinta dan anak2nya yang manis ini,,,(hohoho) dan hanya pulang tiap weekend,,, akhirnya papa balik lagi ke pelukan kami dan pelukan kota tersayang Samarinda…

hehehe,,,lebay….

bodo…lagi seneng ini…

Papa kmren (senin, 2 feb 09) dilantik ma gubernur untuk jadi Kepala Dinas Peternakan Provinsi Kal-Tim… wooohooo,,,akhirnya si papa balik lagi ke kantor awalnya,,,hehehe…

konon dulu katanya (apaan seeeh???) pas aku kelas 3 smp tuh (klo gak 2002 si 2003) Papa yang kerja di Dinas Peternakan Provinsi ditarik ke kabupaten Penajam,,,berhubung papa putra daerah tuh,,,awalnya jadi Kadis Pertanian n peternakan n perkebunan juga klo gak salah,,,trus pindah lagi jadi Kepala Bappeda di Penajam juga…jadilah dia berkarier disana selama krg lebih 6 tahun di Kaupaten Penajam Paser Utara (yang mrpkan kabupaten termuda di KalTim)..dan akhirnya sekarang Provinsi narik papa lagi ke Provinsi…

kaya yoyo aja ya,,,ditarik-tarik-ulur…hehehe

Seneng,,,akhirnya papa gak jauh2 lagi kerjanya (walaupun penajam bisa dicapai dengan 2 jam ke balikpapan trus sekitar 15menit naek speed ato 1 jam ferry),,,tapi tetep aja jauh…

sekarang papa berarti bisa bilang met tinggal ma berangkat subuh2 ke penajam…kantor baru juga palingan cuma 10 menit dr rumah,,,itu klo lambat banget,,,hehehe….

WELCOME BACK PAPA,,,

tapi aku tetep tinggal berjauhan ding,,,tapi tak apa saudara2,,,aku akan mengejar mimpi n meraih cita2,,,demi membangun KALTIM..

Tetep bo…BANGGA MEMBANGUN KALTIM

sekarang nambah slogan baru

MEMBANGUN KALTIM UNTUK SEMUA…

hohoho,,,,hidup NHIRA!!!!!!!

My “kinda fascinating unique holiday”

Hoho,,,di minggu tenang yang tegang ini,,,yang harusnya aku belajar,,ortu+adekku+nenekku malah datang ke yogya,,,

cerita lama banget klo aku bilang aku gak bisa belajar jadinya (which is damn right,,,hohoho)

jadinya nih ya,,,liburan kali ini rada2 aneh tapi seru juga,,,

kan kita nginep di wisma MM tuh,,,seumur2 yah,,aku gak pernah ngerasain kebanjiran di KAMAR HOTEL….

nah ini,,,tiba2 aja pas mau sarapan,,WC nya banjir,,ya udah lah, salurannya dibuka ma mamaku…eh pas abis sarapan kan tidur2 gtu,,pas lagi asyik2nya si inad tiba2 teriak “weehh,,,banjir…”

hohoho,,,langsung kalang kabut gak jelas…mindah2in barang ke atas…

langusng ngubungin orang wismanya,,,trus mereka langsung ngerjain tuh kamar,,,

n sesuai standard, mereka akhirnya mindahin kami ke kamar laennya…

well,,,1 story ends…

trus kejadian kedua baru aku alamin tadi niii….

kan tadi ke solo,,,pake supir yang biasanya,,,

dia tuh keliatan ngantuk banget,,jadi pas perjalanan mau ke solo kita ditabrak (atau menabrak,,gak gitu jelas) ma sedan merah…2 supir saling beradu pendapat, jadinya supir aku malah ngajak ke kantor polisi aja biar nyelesain,,ditunggu 10menitan di kantor polisi,,tu supir satunya malah gak datang2…jadinya ya kita melanjutkan perjalanan lagi ke solo…

trus,,pas mau pulang, si supir ngantuk lagi,,,

n kali ini parah cuy,,,hampir nabrak cewek naek sepeda,,,untuk tuh supir emang jago bin lihai,,,jadinya masih sempet ngindar…selamet,,,selamet…

mana si papa tidur pula,,,jadinya aku ma inad berusaha bangunin pake HP…supaya papa bangun n ngajak si supir ngobrol…

gile aja,,,siapa yang gak shaking ngeliat mobil dikendarain dengan rada kenceng n pake mata setengah tertutup pula….

ckckckck,,,,well,,,kali ini liburannya rada GJ si,,,,

tapi OK lah…

gotta get my book close to me though,,,,

sama sekali gak ada belajar niiii

am i that pail??

am i that pail??

kayaknya muka aku akhir2 ini pucet banget apa yak???

tadi pas ada kunjungan DPK ke RS Ghrasia, si pak kadept mas isroi malah nyuruh aku cepet2 ke dokter gara2 ngeliat mukaku yang katanya kurang tidur n langsung nanyain kesehatan aku akhir2 ini,,,

ya udah, dijawab aja,, emang si rada kurang tidur semalem,,n kepala juga kadang sakit n sering panas gitu,,,tapi ya gitu aja…

eh terusan dia malah suruh aku terus periksa ke doketr…”periksa loh,,ntar penyakitnya semua terakumulasi”

wuiiiihhh,,,,serem,,,tp giana don???

lagi sibuk2nya!!! takut juga si periksanya…takut ntar kenapa2 n harus di apa2in,,padahal minggu depan udah mid…

TIDAK….TIDAK….CUKUP ARMANDO

Hohhoho “lebay mode off”

hehehe…

Jaga kesehatan Nhira!!!! Udah mau mid,,

n so much stuff to do,,,gotta work hard n focus….

oia,,,Happy birthday Icha

hehehe